Getting to Know Myself
High strung. Perfectionist. Germaphobe. Type A. People pleaser. Anxious. Anal-retentive. High achiever. For as long as I can remember, these are among the ways that people would describe me. I would describe myself this way too. I am, generally speaking, very hard on myself. I often set what are, unrealistically high expectations for myself. I want to do things “right.” I want to achieve. When I was younger, I wanted to make good grades. I wanted to excel. I wanted things to be perfect or “just right.” And, I didn’t leave this behind when I graduated with my masters degree. From my earliest days in ministry, I wanted people to like me. I wanted to be a good pastor and leader. I wanted to be a good wife. Eventually, I wanted to be a good mom too. But, it was always a little more than that too. In a way I could never fully explain, I didn’t just want to be liked and accepted- I needed it. The great irony though, was that even when people expressed love, praise, validat...
