Restless

This semester has been a wonderful mix of such a variety of emotions and experiences.  It has been crazy stressful at times, but I wouldn't trade the memories I have made for anything.  It is still a journey, but I am learning so much about my heart and the unique gifts God has given me. 

This semester is my first one as an official exercise science major, and I am already loving it.  I don't know what it is, but physical fitness is just something I am so passionate about, and I love sharing my passion for it with anyone and everyone.  My friends like to joke that I have given them some weird disease where they love to exercise, and that just makes me smile because it reminds me that I am right where I need to be in regards to the career I am pursuing.  I have also become a group fitness instructor at school this semester and it is a blast!!  I am getting paid to do something I love, and I can use my passion to help other people become mentally and physically stronger.  Recently, I have also been connecting how parts of my story and walk with God make my major and job so fitting for me.  Some of the things I struggle with are the same ones God is using to help me reach out and witness to girls around me.  It just reminds me that God continually makes beautiful things out of us.

One of the most exciting parts of this time of year has been having preparations for this summer start gearing up.  Carolina Cross Connection is such a life-changing ministry and summer 2012 will be here before we know it!  This summer I have been blessed with the amazing opportunity of being a Lead Program Coordinator at the service camp weeks.  Last year I experienced beautiful displays of God's love and faithfulness, and I believe in the depths of my heart that God desires and has plans to do even greater things in our ministry this summer.  I just cannot wait to begin to see His plans unfold!

Me and my staff last year!

With all the new and exciting things going on in my life I am having a hard time living for the moment and truly being where I am.  I find myself in this perpetual state of unrest where I always just want to be somewhere other than where I am.  I constantly have to remind myself that God has placed me in this season of life for a purpose and I need to live in that reality.  If I am constantly dreaming of future times and places, I am going to miss out on the plans God has for the season I am in now.  I am learning to recognize my restless heart as my thirst for deeper intimacy with my God.  I trust that God is bigger than my circumstances and He is working in my heart to draw me even closer to Him.