Gotta Go Through It
When I started this blog all the way back during my Freshman year of college, I decided to name it "Beautifully Broken." And that name has stuck for the last 8+ years, probably because I alternate between blogging regularly and practically forgetting my blog exists. So, there has been little motivation or cause to think of a different blog title.
The whole reason behind the name is the way God makes something beautiful out of our brokenness. I was also pretty obsessed with the Gungor song "Beautiful Things" at the time, so the name was also an homage to the song. It's years later, and I still love that song. But even more so, I love the theology behind it. It is amazing to think about the way God redeems all things; even painful or broken situations can be transformed into beautiful things.
Of course, this is something we often see only in retrospect. It takes time for us to be able to see the way God's redemption has been at work. It takes time for healing to happen. And we can't really rush the process; it just takes time.
I've been thinking a lot about this recently, especially thinking about what we do in the middle of it. From the vantage point of being able to see the beauty of our brokenness, when we see new life rising out of the ashes, it is easy to hope and easy to feel encouragement. But what do we do when we're in the thick of it and all we see is brokenness? What do we do when we still feel surrounded by ashes and broken pieces, waiting for God to help us put things back together?
I wish I had answers to these questions. I wish I knew express route through disappointment and heartache. But I don't....the only thing I know how to do is just keep moving forward and taking each day one step at a time. The reason I can keep moving forward is because I have a soul-deep trust that God is with me every step of the way. God is even with me when I can't feel it or when I feel completely lost. God is with me when I am disappointed and broken hearted.
And in each and every one of these spaces and places, God is making all things new, including me. It just takes time. The only way to truly get past disappointments or failures is through them. If I try to go over, under, or around the feelings and emotions surrounding them, I won't ever truly find healing. So, I guess I am learning that it is okay to let myself be sad and to feel the disappointment of something not turning out like I hoped. I just can't let myself get stuck there. I can't tell myself I made a mistake by taking a chance on something.
Even in the face of the disappointment, I am still glad that I took a chance. I am still glad I decided to follow a passion and see what happened. It wasn't the outcome I might have wanted, but I trust that God has a bigger plan. So I will just keep on taking this journey one step at a time because the only way to achieve big things is to keep moving forward.
The whole reason behind the name is the way God makes something beautiful out of our brokenness. I was also pretty obsessed with the Gungor song "Beautiful Things" at the time, so the name was also an homage to the song. It's years later, and I still love that song. But even more so, I love the theology behind it. It is amazing to think about the way God redeems all things; even painful or broken situations can be transformed into beautiful things.
Of course, this is something we often see only in retrospect. It takes time for us to be able to see the way God's redemption has been at work. It takes time for healing to happen. And we can't really rush the process; it just takes time.
I've been thinking a lot about this recently, especially thinking about what we do in the middle of it. From the vantage point of being able to see the beauty of our brokenness, when we see new life rising out of the ashes, it is easy to hope and easy to feel encouragement. But what do we do when we're in the thick of it and all we see is brokenness? What do we do when we still feel surrounded by ashes and broken pieces, waiting for God to help us put things back together?
I wish I had answers to these questions. I wish I knew express route through disappointment and heartache. But I don't....the only thing I know how to do is just keep moving forward and taking each day one step at a time. The reason I can keep moving forward is because I have a soul-deep trust that God is with me every step of the way. God is even with me when I can't feel it or when I feel completely lost. God is with me when I am disappointed and broken hearted.
And in each and every one of these spaces and places, God is making all things new, including me. It just takes time. The only way to truly get past disappointments or failures is through them. If I try to go over, under, or around the feelings and emotions surrounding them, I won't ever truly find healing. So, I guess I am learning that it is okay to let myself be sad and to feel the disappointment of something not turning out like I hoped. I just can't let myself get stuck there. I can't tell myself I made a mistake by taking a chance on something.
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